I prefer Nicki Minaj back in her mixtape days rather than the Nicki Minaj on the radio. Sure, all her songs are catchy but have this pop “feeling” to it rather than a true meaning behind her lyrics. Even though her style (both fashion and writing) has certainly gotten more different, I think it’s cause of the influences of society. If it wasn’t for the media and all that, she probably wouldn’t dress how she would today with her crazy outfits and colored hair. Her music would be different too because the “pop” sound is adaptable by the radio. I think her mixtape had shown the real Nicki more.

I don’t even care about Valentine’s day, I just want it to end so that my Twitter & Facebook will no longer be filled with:

• people complaining about being forever alone/single
• people complaining about other people complaining about valentine’s day
• people complaining about how if you love someone then everyday should be like valentine’s day
• people complaining about not receiving roses or chocolate
• people complaining about other couples

STFU IT’S A NATIONAL HOLIDAY, HAS BEEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE, JUST ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS FOR 24 HOURS!

Sometimes the people I surround myself with make me want to kill myself.

I have to find some motivation in my life soon towards school. I need to get my grades up and do the best I can on all my assignments/exams. My life literally depends on my grades right now cause they determine whether or not I can get into university. Senior year may be the best year, but it’s also the most stressful year. No more time can be wasted, every second is precious. I can’t sit here doing nothing anymore and spending all my time on social networking. I have to focus on school. Let’s hope it’s all worth it in the end.

I think that if a number wasn’t used to determine my intelligence, I would be more motivated and try much harder in school.

I hate this feeling in my life right now. Like there’s nothing to look forward to and that I’m living for no reason. Hoping for better days to come and that “good life” feeling again.

You know what makes me depressed? When I hear Good Feeling from Flo Rida on the radio. It’s actually HORRIBLE compared to Avicii. Avicii’s version is waaaay better and Flo Rida ruined the beat of Levels too. Some people think that Avicii ripped off Flo Rida too.. which would never happen.

I don’t get lonely at night. I feel more lonelier when I’m at school and surrounded by so many, yet I feel like I’m just fading away. It’s like that quote that goes “have you ever felt lonely in a crowded place?” Cause that’s always me and I don’t really know why. I’m too used to being alone all the time. I actually enjoy it more than when I have company sometimes.

Sometimes I do miss you and I don’t even know how we got here, but it’s not my fault is it?  I guess no matter how much you don’t want to drift away from someone, it eventually happens. It’s not too late to save it but it’s kind of hard when you don’t even do anything. I wonder if you even notice it, or if you’re just too used to the distance.